Showing posts with label 1990s. Show all posts
Showing posts with label 1990s. Show all posts

Friday, 10 September 2021

Tarot Spread: Christopher Kerze




Christopher stayed home from school on April 20, 1990. He said he had a bad headache and planned to stay home from school. His father went away on a business trip that day and his mother left him alone at their Eagan, Minnesota residence, after giving him an over-the-counter pain medication for his headache.

When they came home, the family's light blue 1988 Dodge Caravan was gone, the family dog was running around loose, and there was a note on the kitchen table from Christopher reading: "Mom, Something important came up + feeling somewhat better. Back by six. (Unless I get lost.) Love, Chris" The word "lost" in the note was underlined twice. Christopher's mother believes his statement about getting lost was just a reference to the fact that he occasionally got lost while he was driving.

Christopher never arrived home and has never been heard from again. He withdrew $200 from his savings account the day he disappeared. The next day, a handwritten note arrived at his parents' home, postmarked Duluth, Minnesota; that town is about two and a half hours from Eagan.

The note said Christopher had lied about being sick so he could use the family's car to get away "to not even I know where." He said he intended to take his own life, and apologized for hurting his family and loved ones.

Two days after Christopher was last seen, the Dodge Caravan was found abandoned on the roadside in Itasca County in northern Minnesota, near the George Washington State Forest and the Chippewa National Forest, about twenty miles north of Grand Rapids, Minnesota. Christopher's grandparents lived in Grand Rapids. Inside the van were the keys and a note from Christopher explaining who owned the van.

An extensive search of the area turned up no indication of his whereabouts; it's possible he hitchhiked to an unknown destination. After Christopher's disappearance, his family got a tip from someone who claimed they'd picked up a hitchhiker resembling him who asked to be taken to Duluth, the place where the suicide note had been mailed from. This story has not been verified.

The family also got a lot of strange calls where the caller would not speak and there would be background noise like a party. Christopher's mother believes the strange calls were from him. They continued for six months before stopping abruptly.

In 2004, the Eagan Police Department got an anonymous letter postmarked Seattle, Washington that asked them to stop looking for Christopher. The letter writer said Christopher was a "guardian angel" and that he would return home when he was ready. Police eventually concluded the letter was a hoax.

Prior to his disappearance, Christopher hadn't given any indications there were problems in his life. He was an excellent student who'd been invited to join the National Honor Society and was a National Merit Scholar semi-finalist, and he was a member of his school's swimming team and played the clarinet. His other hobbies included skiing, camping, reading, laser tag and computers.

Christopher was carrying his father's 1954 to 1956 model Mossberg 20-gauge bolt-action shotgun with a three-shell clip at the time of his disappearance, but he apparently didn't take any ammunition with him. Authorities believe the gun may have been abandoned somewhere in rural Minnesota and was possibly found later by a hunter.

Photos of a similar gun, and watch similar to what Christopher was wearing, are posted with this case summary. Investigators would like to hear from anyone who found such a gun in 1990 or afterwards.

Christopher's case remains unsolved and many agencies classify it as a runaway. His parents still live in the house where they lived in 1990, and have kept the same phone number. Police believe it's likely he took his own life and that his body has not been found yet.

I felt a little uncomfortable writing about a boy who may have committed suicide. But I decided to look into his case nevertheless. There are roughly thirty more cases from across the world that I wish to look at, mainly those of children, but I believe that this is the only one where suicide may be involved.

I shall add links to suicide hotlines at the end of this reading.

1)                   Two of Pentacles, reversed. An imbalance between work and home, discord, resisting change, a turn for the worse, incomplete projects. Accountants, shift workers, those with multiple jobs, stock market investors or traders, market traders.

Due to Christopher’s age, I wonder if the imbalance refers to his school work. Did he have trouble at school? From what I can find, he appears to have been a good student. Maybe he felt overworked?

 

2)                   Nine of Pentacles. Gain, rewards for your efforts, realizing your goals, financial and personal independence, material security, self-sufficiency, a kept man or woman. Those with a trust fund, horticulturists, the retired, bird keepers, landscape gardeners.

The second card represents the obstacle for the Querent – in this case Christopher. It seems to be an odd card to indicate an obstacle. But perhaps it may refer to a person. Could someone who fits the criteria suggested perhaps have quarrelled with the boy?

 

3)                   Seven of Pentacles, reversed. Failure in business, blockages in production, fruitlessness, poor investments, a turn in either direction, fear of success, self-sabotage. Planners, long-term investors, garden centre workers, plant growers.

I think about Christopher’s alleged – and I cannot stress that word enough – suicidal tendencies when I see the word fruitlessness. Remember, if you or anyone you know has suicidal thoughts, I have listed some helplines below.

The fruitfulness could normally indicate someone’s fertility, but as Christopher was seventeen, I am not sure that this what the card is referring to.

 

4)                   Four of Swords. Calling a truce, a rest, agreement, considering your position, tomb, coffin.

I had a terrible feeling in my gut when I turned over this card. I felt as if I were intruding on Christopher’s private moments, especially since the fourth card in a reading indicates the future (when I do readings for missing people, the future refers to the time after they were last seen). I feel positively awful as I say with certainty that it seems as if Christopher is dead, whether by his own hand or someone else’s.

 

5)                   Strength. Inner strength, self-assurance, self-control, patience, strength through personal power, vitality, compassionate.

This card is a little difficult to interpret. On the one hand, as the fifth card represents what the Querent wants to achieve, it could signify what Christopher wanted from life, but did not feel as if he could achieve. If this were the case, I think that this particular card might have been reversed. So perhaps he set out with the intention of suicide, but something changed his mind. If so, what happened to prevent him from going home? Was he the victim of a crime? Was he ashamed?

 

6)                   Fool. New beginnings, spontaneity, adventure, innocence, fearlessness, a leap of faith, freedom from constraints, seeking freedom.

Does this mean that Christopher ran away? It certainly seems so. He was seventeen, an age where foolishness and spontaneity abound. Could it be entirely possible that the sadness of the Four of Swords was a turning point and not an omen of death, with Christopher realising how string he really was? I truly hope so.

But if this is the case I must ask again where he has been all this time.

 

7)                   World, reversed. Plans falling through, unfinished business, delayed success, non-movement, stagnation, being stuck in a rut.

The seventh card signifies the Querent themselves. Whether or not Christopher chose to die that day, this card may indicate his suicidal tendencies. As the card is reversed, the ‘success’ that may have been delayed, or ‘plans’ that fell through may refer to ‘bad’ plans – his intention of killing himself.

Either way, the non-movement is confusing. There is some evidence that he made his way to Duluth. He could still be living there if this is true.

 

8)                   Nine of Wands. Determination, test of character, belief in your personal power, being able to push through. Soldiers and the military, security guards, striking workers.

The eighth card refers to the Querent’s environment. Again the idea of failing to kill himself comes up. It is the only explanation I can think of.

 

9)                   Page of Wands. Messages, electronic communication, renewed vigour, school or college friend, youngster or child.

The ninth card represents hopes and fears. The message makes me think of the note he left behind, or even the letter mailed from Duluth. I wonder if a school friend managed to help him get away. Perhaps they were the first person that he went to. Maybe Christopher is scared that this person may give away what they know. Is he frightened of returning home? Ashamed?

 

10)               King of Pentacles, reversed. Materialistic bigot, exploiter or harsh employer, opinionated, cruel, poor business decisions, sex addict. Estate agent, businessman or manager, banker, teacher or other educator, mentor, exporter or importer.

This card may indicate the reasons behind Christopher’s decision. There must have been someone in his life that Christopher wanted to get away from. I think it would be best to take another look at his school life and any extracurricular activities that he undertook. I believe you will find the answers there.


Suicide Hotlines

https://www.supportline.org.uk/problems/suicide/ (UK)

https://suicidepreventionpathways.org.au/ (AUS)

https://www.crisisservicescanada.ca/en/ (CAN)

http://www.suicide.org/hotlines/international/germany-suicide-hotlines.html (GER)

https://www.youthline.co.nz/(NZ)

http://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/ (USA)

Saturday, 5 June 2021

Tarot Spread: Megan Garner

The information below is piled from the Charley Project.

Megan was last seen in a playground near her family's residence in the 4600 block of Paluxy Drive in Tyler, Texas on March 27, 1991 at approximately 11:00 a.m. She was accompanied by her brother and cousin at the time. The other children turned away from Megan for a few moments and she disappeared. She has never been seen again. Few details are available in her case. 

The information below is piled from the Charley Project.

I can find little information on Megan. But from what I can see, she appears to be a cheerful child. Let us hope that there will be a happy ending for this girl.


1.       Knight of Swords. Travel, migration, change of residence, taking action, clever, energetic, spontaneous, a tour guide, actor, soldier, electrician or someone working in marketing and promotions or professional sports.

This card focuses on the topic at hand. The idea of travel and a change of residence, as opposed to someone leaving, implies to me that Megan was taken by someone intending to keep her. There are pyramids in the card, but I doubt that she went all the way to Egypt. There’s a Palestine, which is not too far from Tyler, and a Sudan. Maybe she’s in Memphis?


2.       Strength. Inner strength, self-assurance and self-control, lacking courage, enjoying power, sex, lust, potency, confidence without arrogance, compassionate.

The lustful part of this card worries me, especially as the second card represents Megan’s obstacle. However, it could simply mean that she might have been TOO confident. This card can refer to people who work as animal trainers, negotiators, circus performers or animal rescuers. The lion in the card makes me think again of the pyramids from the Knight of Wands. Perhaps they are connected in some way? There are also trees, a hill and a mountain the card. Could Megan be in close proximity to trees and a hill? I do not know how many mountains are in Texas, unless she was taken some distance from Tyler.

 

3.       Two of Cups, reversed. Separation, the end of a relationship, rejection, love withdrawn, falling out, business deals gone awry.

I think this refers to when Megan was taken from the playground. Either love was withdrawn from her by whoever took her, or she refused to love them if they took her to be their child. This card can refer to a couple, unrequited love or rejection or friendship. Could a couple have taken Megan? A hill comes up again, so perhaps she is near one.

 

4.       Ten of Wands, reversed. Some relief from tough circumstances, burdens being lifted, trying to fulfil obligations but failing, losing control, weightlifters, construction workers, rescue workers, lumberjacks.

There may have been some relief for Megan in this difficult time, as unlikely as it may seem at first. Maybe she was told that her family wanted to give her away. It would be easy to trick a three-year-old. Wands represent days or spring (she disappeared in March). Could Megan have been relieved after several days? The idea of construction workers makes me wonder for a moment if the ‘relief’ she received was bittersweet, but I truly hope not.

 

5.       Six of Cups. Pleasure, nostalgia, happy memories, gratification, family support, families and siblings, child minders, teachers, youth workers.

The card shows one child handing a cup other to another. Could there have been another child where Megan was taken, either at the time or after she arrived? Cups refer to summer and months. Was Megan in a – mildly – cheerful situation by the time summer arrived? This reading seems to be quite positive despite being about a missing toddler. While people looking to become parents tend to abduct newborns or very young babies, it is not out of the question for them to take someone Megan’s age. Or perhaps the family she came to live with did not know that she was kidnapped.

 

6.       King of Swords, reversed. Dictatorial, domineering, untrustworthy, cowardly, impatient.

This is what Megan had to work with. Her abductor may have been a man (although this does not rule out the possibility that she was taken to raise) and a cruel one at that. He could be a civil servant, doctor or a military officer. This may not be the person that took Megan, but someone that she has encountered after she was last seen. He was likely over forty in 1991. Swords tend to indicate people with grey or light hair and a light complexion.

 

7.       Queen of Pentacles. Motherly, caring, prosperity, luck in business, a teacher, cook, works with animals, someone with an affinity for gardening and nature.

This card represents the Querent, in this case Megan. This card COULD mean that she has grown up as a Queen usually means a woman over the age of eighteen years (Megan would be 33 as of this reading), sometimes with dark hair and brown eyes. If Megan grew up, this might described her physical appearance. While this card meant mean a woman involved in Megan’s abduction, the fact that the seventh card to be drawn symbolises the Querent, I would say that it is more likely that this card represents Megan herself. She might be an Earth Mother, someone who spends time outdoors, often into health and exercise. If she works then she may be a multi-tasker and is organised and reliable.

 

8.       King of Wands, reversed. Bossiness, self-righteous, smooth-talking con artist, shameless, possibly optimistic, a businessman, energetic and far too charismatic.

This card points towards features in Megan’s environment. He might have fair or red hair and blue eyes. This is someone in close proximity to Megan. Whether he is involved in her disappearance or not, I am uncertain, but he is definitely within close range of wherever she is at the present time. Lions and lizards are illustrated on the King’s throne, which makes me think that these animals are somehow connected to him.

 

9.       Six of Swords. Mental clarity, ideas coming together, using your intellect, an inner journey of discovery or an actual journey, possibly over water. Travellers, teachers, mentors, tour guides, travel agents.

This card signifies Megan’s hopes and fears. This card might mean that she will travel home over water, or has travelled somewhere overseas. Egypt again pops into my mind. Perhaps she wishes to travel, or wants to be a tour guide or a travel agent. The inner journey of discovery might mean that she wishes to know more about her past, if she is adopted or believes that those looking after her are not her parents. If she is, then I hope that she comes across a genealogy website.

 

10.   Eight of Swords, reversed. Being released from obligations, taking steps to empowerment, overcoming fear, seeing the situation clearly, finding freedom.

This is an extremely cheerful card to end this reading on. The woman in the card is blindfolded, but if she could see, then she will notice that she is in no danger. Perhaps Megan, now that she would be an adult, could finally get away from her abductors – if they are still ‘caring for her’ – and will see the situation clearly. Perhaps she will find a genealogy website. All in all, I believe that this means that Megan will come home.